Today is a sad day for me - literally. I mean, I knew I was gonna screw up my math paper, no biggie. But what really made me break down was the death of my yaii (my dad's father) today, at exactly 2.50pm, when I WAS DOING MY LIT EXAM. Pfuit!

So, after lit ended at 4, my mom picked me up, and there was my grandparents (mom's parents) in the car. I asked where we were going, and my mom casually said, "Rumah yaii." I was like, "What for? We just went last Sunday." Then, my mom said, kind of sadly, "Yaii Kamid meninggal." That's when my heart shattered. What?! I wanted to ask, "You're kidding, right?" But no, I didn't. I was speechless. The last time I saw him, he was fine, except that he had this huge blue black bruise from God-knows-where. Boy, am I glad I went to break fast with him last Sunday, the day before GP exam. At least I got to joke with dear grandfather.

And what really touched my heart was the fact that my grandmother said that the day before he passed away, i.e. yesterday, he attended some other person's funeral. What I didn't expect, and so did the others, that we would be attending his funeral today. TODAY.

I've just lost a dear grandfather. One who cares about his grandchildren, one who shares stories of the After Life, one who treats us like we're the only kins he's got, one who....

I'm too sad. See, I'm crying already.

God, I miss him already. When I kissed his forehead just now, he was peaceful, and what's more important was that he died a Muslim. I'll be visiting my late grandfather tomorrow before my paper starts at 1pm. Till then..

Ya Allah, Kau cucurilah rahmatMu ke atas roh arwah yaii, Haji Kamid bin Ikhsan. Amin.