Ah, it seems so long since I got to do what I finally got to do. The week has been really horrible, and everyone's been really nice to me this past week. Thank you all to those who showed me a lil' kindness. Appreciate it lots. :D

I plan to start hardcore mugging in May. Still not too late, I think, although Ms Ng did kindly mention that it's a wee bit too late to start mugging. I don't care. I'm still gonna mug like a shithead in May, irregardless of whatever people say. I'm gonna abandon my social life, no more retail therapy for many more months, and no more updating of posts every day. I won't go MSN-ing until the wee hours of the morning, I won't reply to any more senseless messages, and I will do my assignments and tutorials conscientiously and study for every test as though it's the real papers. I'm gonna go straight home after school every day, no more gallivanting to other places, and carry out a mundane life. Cos suddenly, I have asked myself this, "How much do you want to go to a university? How much do you want it? How much do you want to be considered for a place in university? Think about it. It's a dog-eat-dog world out there, you've got to remain competitive, and it starts NOW." Ahah...I need some support, but I think I'll be fine.

God, please help me with my many more months leading up to November. Make me strong mentally and spiritually. Thanks.

P.S.: By the way, happy birthday Taufik! Oiehyy...you're 20 already. Hoping to meet you really soon. :D

I've been meeting all sorts of weird and uncomfortable encounters since the past week. Let me see, firstly, I thought that I was being stalked, secondly, there's this freak from the neighbouring class who stares at me for no reason, thirdly, I keep bumping into furniture, and has somewhat accumulated bruises all over my body. I swear I'm not getting blind, and I would not like to believe that I am getting clumsier than I used to be. Maybe I just wasn't concentrating enough.

The realization that I will be sitting for the A's this November suddenly dawned on me when Faz asked about history yesterday, until she had to point out that there's so much to study in so little time. And I seriously am getting a wee bit worried. I have to do well, and there's no question about it. As usual, I confided in Linds, and she is getting kinda worried about mine and Khai's behaviour, cos it seems that we are behaving like two paranoid students with really panicky behaviours. I don't know. At the time when I needed support the most, you weren't there to support me. You were too busy with your life, that you couldn't even be bothered to ask about me. I guess time has rendered us apart, but I'm determined to make this friendship work.

The weather is so confusing these days. As I've mentioned in an earlier post, the weather has caused my classmates to be sick. Hui Qi and Yi Han came to school today, with the flu, fever and sore throat virus, and oh man, they look really sick. I'm kinda worried for them, because I am so afraid that they may just collapse after a while. Yi Han was sneezing like really terrible, while Hui Qi, when she entered GP class just now, her eyes were very red, and it seems as if she had been crying for the past hour or so. I so do hope that I won't fall sick anytime now, because even though skipping school is an interesting prospect when I'm really tired, I can't afford it. If I don't get sick, then that means I have a strong immune system.

Remember the NUS Camp which I am supposed to attend this April? Yeah. It's been postponed to May. I hope it's on held on the last week of May, because on the 27th of May, it's gonna be my last day at madrasah, and I don't wanna leave my friends before saying adieu.

Isyah's snoring away. Well, not exactly snoring, more like sleeping. I'm supposed to wake her up at 4.30pm, which is in 35 minutes time, cos she has cheer later at 5.30. If she doesn't wake up, then I don't know what to do.

Oh God, please give me the strength to overcome all odds that is in my way.

Family Day was, erm, fun? I think not, except for the food part. It seems like I spent all my coupons on food alone, and just 1 buck on games. Ah yes, I am that stingy. Except that I wasn't the only one. I would like to acknowledge that there were other people, like me, thinks that spending the coupons on food is more worth it than spending it on games. People like Farah, Nashita, a few of my classmates and whoever else. Ahaha...smart eh?

The best part of the day was getting wet and wild. Woohoo!!! I got squirted at like billions of times, with a space interval of half an hour (read: time to get dry). The water was from our tanks, and that's where the people blow the boats on. God knows how much saliva is in there. I try not to think about it, because it is waaayyy too disgusting. Nevertheless, we still dipped our hands bravely into the tanks, and soak our hands in the water, with that many impurities present. Eeww....I feel so disgusted now, that I think about it. We had fun, right Jamie?

And the second best thing was beating Farah at Mr Haikel and Mr Farid's marbles booth. It just pleases me that Farah was the one who lost to me, though I must acknowledge that Farah was a strong competitor (a politically correct answer). Initially, it was just Haikel at the booth, then me and Farah were squabbling over this one basin, which we both wanted to use. Along came Farid, and Haikel complained, "Farid! Mari sini! Aku tak boleh handle ini dua." Whatever ya Haikel. Anyhoos, he made us pay 0.50 bucks each to play the marble game! And the most 'infuriating' part was that, he let Hida play the game for free! Baahh...so unfair. This is discrimination tau!

Just a random note: I think the hosts of Family Day were pretty lame and boring. So was the AMAZING HUNT. Not that AMAZING after all.

I feel like crap. I was desperately trying to print and re-print that Schoolbuzz account records and the school printer just won't print it. Then, out of desperation, I had to settle for an ugly print. Thank goodness I didn't hand that slip of paper in. Because when I got home, logged on to my schoolbuzz account (who knows, that printer at home might work), tried printing, but got the same results. After printing six times, I realised that there's a PRINT button on the left. Dangs! I tried that, then the records showed on the paper. I felt like such a gundu, can?!

Tomorrow's Family Day, and you know what? I'm actually excited about it. And I so love the boat which me, Mich and Isyah made.

School has been hectic the past week. I'm prolly half dead. Thank God I'm still alive though.

More next time!

By the way, congrats to Fitrah and Hida! You did us proud. How's the diva, by the way?

The weather is really very confusing these past few days. I mean, it can be really sunny and humid one second, and the next, it will be pouring. I guess that kinds of makes me feel really grey, neither here nor there. I can't concentrate during tutorials, and during lectures, I'll be so sleepy and feeling really lethargic that the only consolation is that it's always 15 minutes before the end of lecture and I'm secretly counting down the minutes. Yes, pathetic, I know. I'm trying to be more spicy about my own life, and I try not to let the weather affect me, but it seems that I am a slave to the weather.

It has been a really tiring weekend, what with the trip to Johor for some cousin's wedding (I seem to have cousins getting married every other week eh?), and it was waaaayyyy boring. I mean, who wouldn't be bored to death if all you have to do is to sit in one chair, eat, and then stare at the people walking. It's crazy, and to top it all off, I wasn't feeling well (no, not because of the weather, but because of a certain Mr A. Lim, who made us run our 2.4km in the rain, and yes, it's because of the weather. What am I saying?!). There's headaches, fevers, flu, and whatnots, and tell me about it, I was feeling rather sleepy and really hot, and my body temperature went up to an astounding 38 degrees. Aarrghhh! A. Lim, I'm so gonna sue you. Just you wait.

I've yet to complete my GP outlines, but I guess I'll save that for tomorrow's break at 9.45. There's Lit test tomorrow, first period, and I still have yet to come up with my points, so there, I'm prepared to fail this paper (well, not like I always pass Lit, of course).

I'm suddenly missing Wei Vien. Why her of all people????

Well, well, PW results were released today. I got a B. There's a consolation though. About 70% of the cohort got a B too, so that means I'm okay. I was disappointed initially, but I realised that there is more to PW than the grade itself. It's about teamwork, about rushing about to meet datelines, about spending time at Macs in order to get that 'conducive' environment. It's about tolerating each other's behaviour, it's about breaking down at certain intervals, and it's more importantly, about venturing into grounds where nobody has ever gone to.

I'm going to support the FMSA team tomorrow at the Woodlands library auditorium. AJ's up against some really strong teams, and I really do hope that they do really well for tomorrow' semi-finals. Cos I would love to see the AJ team going on to the finals.

All the best, guys!

I realised that half, if not majority of my posts are about some-crap-old-mud-story-stuck-in-the-toothpick kind of stories. So, I shall persevere to revamp the quality of the posts, and hopefully, achieve an award winning professional award at the end of the contract.

Don't ask me why. I shall wait, but I won't wait forever. Thank you.

Let me get this straight. I am not a structured person, which explains why my bedroom looks like kandang kerbau kind of room, my table macam terbalik pasal hurricane kind of table, my hair macam baru kena ramas oleh binatang kind of hair, and the possibilities are endless. Therefore, it is not my fault if you find my papers crumpled and messy, because you chose to copy it. I did not auction my papers and no one bids my papers. So stop complaining and telling me to be a neat freak, because seriously, that is like too much to ask. What's wrong with being a little bit messy? What's wrong with spreading your things out all over the table, colonising the entire stretch of benches? You tell me what's so wrong about that. Mr Goh Chok Tong once said, "If the government did not say anything about that issue, just go ahead and do whatever you want. If there's no U-turn sign at the roads, if you wanna U-turn, just go ahead. Nobody's gonna stop you." So who the hell are you to stop me from doing what I want? It's my life, and I live my life the way I want it to be governed. You better freakin' stay out of my way, because when all the blood in me boils right up to the max, you'll be the first that I'm coming after. So, the moral of the story is, get out my way, and mind you own little toilet business.

There. Note that this post is not directly shot at anyone in particular, but the person reading this should know that I'm referring to her. No, not my family members or relatives. The used-to-be friend.

On a happier note, it's Thursday! Which means that the weekends are near, and which also means that I have to prepare for ustaz the reasons why surah al-fatihah is the first surah in the Quran. Can't wait. :D

Well, here I am again, at the end of the day, absolutely pooh-ed out by the tremendous workload that I've to handle over the past two days. I'm not really looking forward to school, but neither would I want to stay at home again just to complete assignments over the internet. Damn crazy, I tell you. It's madness. So much for preparing us for emergencies.

On a lighter note, I'd like to send my huge love and wishes to the tarian team. Tomorrow's their SYF judging. They've put in lots of efforts, staying back in school up till as late as 8pm every Tuesdays and Wednesdays, and I can see how they are all very tired. I saw the dance once, and it was uber fantastic! I'll be surprised if they do not get a medal, but God forbid that to happen, they should win a medal. I'm positive they'll be able to do well. You go girls! I'll be supporting you guys from the back seat. Take three deep breaths before you go on stage, relax, and just have fun! Make AJML proud, ok? To credit the lovely ladies,
Isyah, Hida, Fitrah, Nashita, Farah, Nadhirah, Elmizah, Raudhah, Badarina, Bevelry, Ashikin, Farhana, Izzah and Deebz, go and dance your souls out! I'll be hearing from you guys on Thursday! All the best!

Till then!

Leceh betul ah nak post comment kat Isyah's blog. For your information, it's hosted on livejournal, dan memang aku tak reti pasal benda-benda gini arh. Ada ke patut bila aku nak submit comment, that thing has this message at the top: Error: Please confirm that you are human, and not a spam robot. Apa saje...Sorry ah Isyah, if this goes on, I'll become a fingerless reader. :D

I was chatting with one of my close buddies (no, not Oi Zailan) yesterday while juggling the e-learning work, and note that I was friends with him since forever, and I have always wanted to smack his head.

It's Impossible says:
You monkey.
shakirah says:
what monkey? where got monkey in my house?
It's Impossible says:
You fool. I told you not to send my number to the girl I like.
shakirah says:
eh. you better know what you're saying. you think i like ah, sending your number to pathetic girls like her?
It's Impossible says:
I don't like pathetic girls. I like sexy bootylicious girls like her.
shakirah says:
ah well, that explains it a lot.
It's Impossible:
Anyways, you know this girl, I asked her this question. "Can I have your name?" You know what she says?
shakirah says:
i know. don't you already have one?
It's Impossible says:
Wth. How come you know????
shakirah says:
I told you I'm psychic, you still don't want to believe me.
It's Impossible says:
That's why I love you dear.
shakirah says:
eh please la. you bapok. go find people of your own kind.
It's Impossible:
shark, you asshole.
shakirah says:
fine. go entertain yourself. i'm doing my work.
It's Impossible says:
Work eh? Tsk tsk...you never do work.
shakirah says:
eh, i do schoolwork. not like you. lazy twerp.
It's Impossible says:
Klakar rabak seh.
shakirah says:
Whatever la eh..
It's Impossible says:
I heard you got a guy now.
shakirah says:
no. where got? i got guy friends though.
It's Impossible:
That means you are single ah?
shakirah says:
but unavailable. hahah..smack that, you filthy little pest.
It's Impossible says:
I know you're gonna like me in the end.
shakirah says:
oh yes actually. IN YOUR DREAMS AH!
It's Impossible says:
...you're gonna like me.
shakirah says:
go bang your head against the wall or something, and stop disturbing me. ok. bye.

I have a sudden dislike for lizards at the moment. A big fat mummy lizard jumped on my hand when I opened the door of the cabinet under the sink. Eewwwww....What luck. I just squealed, and squirmed. Maybe tomorrow, I shall love lizards again, but for the time being, no thanks.

I'm hungry man, got any food or not?

Zomg! I just realised that my blog layout is the same as Fitrah's, only that hers is green and mine's pink. Hoho...Don't kill me yet. I'm only 18, Fitrah!

I remember I used to love the colour pink when I was in primary school. Reason being? I love watching Power Rangers when I was young. Haha..Pretty lame, I know, but I'm certain Farah Fawcett Pink Turtle would be sooo proud of me for loving pink. :D Yeay! I gained brownie points - yet again.

I heard the song A Whole New World played over the radio yesterday. It brings back fond memories of the past. It reminds me of the time when I went to the Omni Theatre to watch Beauty and the Beast and Aladdin when I was in school, and there was this song that was played in the movie itself. It was really nice. It reminds me about Disney. How I used to love Disney characters - and I still do - and how I used to sleep on a bed full of Minnie Mouses and Mickey Mouses and Barbie dolls and Cinderellas. I was that kind of girl back then, and to think about it, I still do get excited whenever I'm faced with Disney characters - which explains why I so badly wanted to go to Disney Florida - and that I'm still waiting for somebody to take me to a magical place. I know all these are childhood fantasies, but I think it's better if we relieve these childhood fantasies, and you know what's the best part? Being able to relieve all these with somebody who shares the same fantasies as me. Someone whom I'm comfortable with. Don't bother guessing who cos you'll never know. I admit, and mark this day, peeps, that I used to imagine myself growing up, living in a castle with my Prince Charming, and having lots of maids and servants around the castle, serving me. And truth be told, whenever I'm alone, I do still dream about this day. :D Girls who claimed that they do not dream about being princesses and all are lying. It's really obvious. I mean, you're born with feminine traits, and this is what a woman/girl will dream of. Otherwise, can you explain why we want to don on beautiful gowns on our wedding days? It's all in the mind, babes, it's all in the mind. Just imagine, and it will be possible if you believe in it (oh gawwddd..I sound like that Mr Flippers, or is it Wippers? Or Mr F? from Spykids).

Before I take the whole load of crap out of me, I'd better log off now. Cos I have to 'visit' Wizlearn for the e-learning thingo. Don't the teachers know that it's social suicide to put youths in front of the computer and expecting them to complete assignments? Like Nicole Berber from Lycee Francais de Singapour once said, "Put 200 thinking teenagers in a room and ask them to think rationally and not be distracted would be murderous."

With that, toodles!

Before I start proper, let me extend a huge congratulations to Hudzy, Rauu, Elmo and Aisyah for qualifying the AJ team to the semis! Congrats! I'm sure you guys did very well, though I personally wasn't there in person, I was there in soul. Hah..creepy...

Today was such a fun day - one of the bests I've ever had thus far. Let me rattle a bit. Ustaz came in at exactly 11.05am sharp, stared at us, asked us some quesions which I thought were rather redundant, and then, started talking about stuff that ain't related to Tafsir. Haha..Baik arh Ustaz Mat. Though I can proudly vouch that I am a biiigggg supporter of young ustazs that area hip, but Ustaz Mat seems to turn me down a little. Reason being is that he isn't that jokey as I thought he was. Yes, no doubt that we had a fun time with him around in class today, but you see, he hasn't really hit my expectations on the dot. So, yes, ustaz, try harder. Maybe getting more personal instead of aloof with us would help greatly. Lols. Live it up, ustaz!

After which, my family went to eat at Carousel (sorry, the initial plan was to go out with my bestest friend in the world, You-Know-Who from You-Know-Where), which is at the Royal Plaza on Scotts. The food was simply superb! It was simply one of ze best! It used to be called Cafe Vienna, but it changed its name for some weird reason. Don't ask me why. But one thing's for sure. I gained calories. Oh heck! Time to work out tomorrow!

Okie dokies, when I return back to school, I'll make sure I hunt down some people on my murder list. It just infuriates me when people don't keep their promises. A new Arab word I learnt today, with credits to Ustaz Mat, nasiya, which means, lazy, literally. LAZY. Go get your butt back to your Econs notes, you wuss!

Okay, this will be a picture-heavy post, to compensate for all the pictures which I meant to put up on this blog since ages ago. So, finally done it, but there's still more to go, and I thought perhaps I may wanna save it for some other time. In the meantime, cleanse your eyes with these! And picture in point, look at the hawt red PUMA watch! That is to die for, I'm tellin' ya!

Really random pictures I saw, and thought they looked kind of interesting. Hahah...

The Barbie MAC collection

Some sights during SIMUN. I'll try upload more pictures if the computer is back on track.

During the HR committee meeting

The cafeteria

Clean plates from my lunches

Breaking limbs seem somewhat of a fad now. I swear, everywhere I go, there seems to be people on crutches, and they are limping. If my memory serves me right, exactly a month ago, jumping onto mrt railway tracks was the fad. Now, it's jumping into bins and down the stairs? Tsk tsk..the things people do just to escape PE. Haha...

Yuan Han said that whenever I eat some MnM's lookalikes chocs, I look like a rabid axe-murderer. Initially, I thought that she was referring to a rabbit axe-murderer, but damn, that phrase seems to be everyone's favourite phrase these days. Even Miss Sabariah made reference to it during GP this week. She was saying something about cancelling our wrong answers neatly, because often, we cancel things such that it seems like students are "mutilating their paper with manic gouges and frenzied states of the pen more resembling the actions of a rabid axe-murderer than a studious and serious candidate." In essence, it simply means that we cancel things so untidily that it's almost horrendous to look at. I swear, these are the things we should expect to hear when we are in an Arts class, not that I'm attempting to discredit the Science peeps, o'course. Hahah...it sounds like a satire, but whatever, if you get what I mean.

Imagine washing your bag which you have not washed since you were 15. It's horrible, terrible. It's like you have to wash accumulated stains and that kind of pisses me off. And the worse part was, I put like tons of soap, and it's even harder to wash all the soap off. Damn. It took me like, 45 minutes, just to wash the soap off. Aahhh..I should have known better.

I finally carried Peanuts today. Zomg, she's so adorable, can?! She's this little hyperactive hamster which me and Isyah invested in for Shahira. I sure do hope she takes care of it properly. I felt like kissing Peanuts, but considering that there's diseases such as Mad Cow Disease and Bird Flu virus, who knows what could come up next, no? Something like, Hammie's Virus. Wahhahhhh...

Thank goodness it's Good Friday the day after tomorrow. It's the long break of 5 days, inclusive of E-learning days, and I just can't wait to welcome the much-needed break from school, from work, from friends, and into my world of dreams, into my world of hope, my world full of joy and laughter because of the presence of some special people in my life. Okay, I'm being really emo now, but I bet, behind the covers at night, you guys are thinking along the same lines.

Met Hafiz (yes, THE Hafiz) and the Sayeem (I refuse to acknowledge Sayeem as another sane human being) at Woodlands just now. They're fine, healthy, and God forbid, still alive! I'm being mean, but as I met them, I was kind of wondering. Something in me has just revived, but I don't know, or refuse to acknowledge that it is really what I think it is. Nah, don't try and make guesses, cos you'll never guess what I'm thinking. So, anyways, Hafiz and the Sayeem apparently are having too fun a time in IJ, which is really unfair cos I don't have that much fun in AJ, except when I'm with my ML peeps. I guess being in a school where there's loads of hip folks around really does help add to that fun factor, not that I'm saying that there ain't any hip people in AJ, but you know, you get my drift.

My suspicions were wrong thus far. Thank God Zai's okay. He's alive, yes. Just chatted to him just now, which is really refreshing, because for once, I can tell him everything without thinking about other concerns. Zai's such a cool friend, I feel like I really must get him a gift one day. :D But babe, don't get your hopes up too high for this gift thingie, that is, if I have enough cash on hand. And don't worry too much about your GPA score, though I have no idea what it entails, a 3.5 sounds reasonably good, for somebody who sharpens his pencils (ahha..inside joke).

Nurimah made me do this weird entry thingie, and it's supposed to let the whole world know 6 weird things about myself. If you can believe what I'm writing here, good for you. If you can't, well, you just can't. Haha..lame, I know. I just had to ask Isyah the weird things I do, just so I can post them down here. :D

6 Weird Things About Myself

1) I like all things slimy and gooey. Really, you've got to appreciate the softer and finer side of life. No pun unintended.

2) I can get overly-hyperactive at times, even when everybody else is moody. No explanation needed.

3) I'm bloody sarcastic, and it's kind of hard to detect it sometimes. My sarcasm is so subtle, you won't even know I'm being sarcastic.

4) I don't have moodswings. Haha. But I still do get the monthly curses yeah..I just don't feel moody. To me, these moodswings are just a psychological thing you tell yourself whenever you have your periods. Period.

5) I get pissed off easily when people whine a lot. I'm not sure if this is a weird thing, but it's weird for me, at least. Like, oh heck, go grab a cushion or something if you're whiny.

6) I can't stand eating too much chocolates. It makes me vomit.

7) Let me add a 7th one. I can't eat when I am in front of flowers. I can vomit, yes, vomit. The psychological effect, cos I could be thinking of swallowing flower petals. Yuck.

I shan't torture anybody to do this entry. So, you can choose to do it. Free for all.