Bad week. Very bad week indeed. I mean, the econs paper went fine on tuesday, but apart from that, the math paper was a complete uggh, with capital in that. I can't believe I have no idea how to do most of the questions, and I'm not proud to say that I didn't really study hard for it. I only studied math like last night, so, I guess I must be pretty stupid. Ok, so the GP went okay, just okay, and I think I may just scrape through it without going beyond a C, I think. Yuck. If I get all C's for this term's tests, I'm so gonna slaughter myself. Oh well, what's done is done. Nothing I can do about it.

I'm now in the school library, and according to the highly reliable clock, it's now 10.20am. I just finished my math paper (math again?) and I'm waiting for 11.45 to appear to take my MT listening comprehension. WTF! At this day and age, listening compre is so passe. Haha..And I'm the last one in the register, number 19, so I thought, "Will I be at a disadvantage because I'm sitting at the back?" Bur..but I figured that if we were to sit in some snake-like formation, maybe I won't be the last one, after all. I can't possibly score very little for it. Nope.

As I've told Zailan in the tags, I won't be updating for the next month or so. I have lots of things to complete, and currently, I'm mugging for my mid-year exams, so don't blame me for the short posts. So, yeah, I will try to update once in a while, but don't expect it to be super-duper long. I don't have that much time anyways. So much for good time management. Maybe I'll try to sneak into the school library to update, but I can't promise you much.

Okies, I have to wrap up econs and lit and history today.

peaceout.

Ok, Zailan, you'll be free of me. Take care, alrite?

Safari is not able to load the page you were finding...

Nobody likes a not-so-well-groomed guy, right?

Whee! I am so elated! What I'm feeling now is beyond what words can describe. Whoa!

I have finally finised mugging since 9am this morning up till 9.20pm just now. That's right. Mugging continuosly. And boy, did I achieve a lot! I managed to cover Production and Costs for Econs and finished theme 3, which is Decolonisation, for History. I'm so proud of myself, and my drive to continue studying non-stop. I haven't even had lunch, much less dinner. And now, I'm feeling kinda weird, like this really light feeling that I just am going to succeed and do well for my mid-year exams. Maybe this is what they mean when they said that we determine our own fate, haha...Maybe tomorrow, I shall continue doing the same thing which I did today - mugging, and mug for Market Structures, yeah, Econs again. I have to pay attention to this topic because it's related to anything and everything. Besides, I have to re-read my lecture notes because I fell asleep, purposefully, during mkt structure lecture. I'm waiting for 10.30pm, because I wanna watch Project Runway. A reward to my hard work today, yippee!!!!

My aunt came today to deliver some crackers which she bought at Terengganu where she went for her holidays. Gosh, she did brought a LOT of crackers. haha..but I doubt I will be eating them since I'm not too fond of fish crackers. I don't really like fish, by the way...

Besides mugging for the whole of today, I actually contemplated on whether I should cut my fringe. I mean, it's getting long, and stuff like that, which totally irritates me sometimes. Maybe I should pay the hairdresser a visit this weekend, provided if I'm free, and I've got money to spare. I also thought of cutting my hair as well, since the length of my hair is way beyond my shoulders. We'll see...

Can you imagine the trauma and agony I had to go through when the stupid sketchboard which belongs to my brother, which weighs almost 2 kg, drops on my little toe? Ouch, it hurts like nobody's business. I was yelping and ouching for a whole 5 minutes, and it's like almost unbearable. I also got splashed by the oil in the pan when my mum was frying the fish. Oohhh...I had to apply lavender oil after that, which totally sucks, by the way, 'cos I hate the smell of lavender.

I had this recurring bad dream last night. I dreamt that I was being chased by huge popsicle sticks, which look really gruesome, because after all, popsicles are supposed to look nice. The popsicles were chasing me around this really unfathomable maze, which seems to have no way out. And they were like drooling down their fronts, which made them really even more gruesome. I guess when you are sick, you start having these weird dreams of things which don't really exist in reality. haha..so much for that.

Since I'm too lazy to reply to Fitri's tag, should he ever visit my blog again, I suggest he read this.


Dear Fitri,
First of all, thanks for the tag. I really didn't expect you to find me here. Haha. Anyways, I don't really listen to jiwang songs. Bless you for not knowing me well enough. But then again, what can I say? You're a year older than me. We only saw each other in the school canteen. And yeah, it was nice knowing you for the whole of my MF career.

Yours,
Shakirah


How's that? Simple. Short. Sweet.

According to the highly unreliable clock, it's 9.43pm. I've got about 45 minutes more till the start of Project Runway. I think I shall continue ranting.

Guess what? My games proposal was accepted by Cikgu Jam. I can't say that it's accepted totally, just the dart game was accepted. So, there's cause for celebration. What me, Izzah, Maizey and Asyurah need to do now is to mobilise the un-drama people and assign shifts for them for the Darul Ma'wa Carnival. I'm so looking forward to everything in Term 3. Besides that, we have the AJ drama production, which they've been doing every year, and this year is no exception. I really hope that it's beyond expectations, like what Humairah said.

Actually, you know, in the previous previous post, I did posted some comments from Mr Loh with regards to my history essay outlines. There's more. But seriously, I'm too lazy to post all his comments. You should totally see my history essay outlines. Just take a look at one, which is about 3 pages long, and you'll get the idea how the other outlines look like. It's peppered with green words, which is Loh's words and comments, by the way. I think, if you put his comments and book it, it can take up like 50-odd pages. After all, what can you expect? He takes Modern History and English Literature in the university. Gosh, and to think that I'm almost swimming in both...

My SEAsian lecturer always said this countless of times, "For heaven's sake, ladies, can you please sit more modestly? If you want to outrage your own modesty, be my guest, but I don't want to outrage mine." Obviously, I sit modestly all the time, but even at times, when I don't really sit properly, there's always the shorts underneath. Oops, secret revealed...Then he would continue saying, "Maybe they should make you ladies wear pants, because as it is, the skirt is short." Haha...I snorted. Lol...I sure had a lot of fun hearing comments like that during lectures.

Okie dokies, it's 10pm now, according to the highly unreliable clock. I guess I've ranted enough...

By the way, Blusttoy, obviously, you have decided to continue with your 20 tags, and now, you can't say that I 'force' you, because nothing in this world can be 'forced'.

toodles...

Actually, i first heard this song over the radio, even though, for those who understand it, might know that this song is from a guy to a girl. but, anyways, this is a Malay song, and seriously speaking, i dont really bother translating anything. it has a special meaning for me. Go Figure what i mean...

Mahligai Syahdu (Hattan)

Kita bertemu kali ini untuk atau
Adakah hanya menambahkan lagi sengsara
Luka yang lama belum dapat aku sembuh
Masih berdarah, mengeruhkan warna hidupku

Chorus:
Namun jika kau datang ini
Untuk menggilapkan cermin kasih
Pasti kusambutmu dengan mesra
Mungkin jua aku terlupa
Peristiwa pahit mencengkam jiwa
Tak ingin aku kesana
Bersama kasih,
Kita labuhkan rantai yang membebankan
Hidup kita selama ini
Katakanlah rindumu,
Aku sentiasa menunggu
Di pintu gerbang mahligai syahdu

Repeat Chorus once more.

What me thinks: Sentimental song. I kind of think of the Other Person whenever I hear this song. Haha..won't say much here. Oh gosh, I'm getting emotional.

Andang Cintaku Menyala (Safura and Izad)
Kudengar suaramu sayang
Memanggil-manggil namaku
Kudengar sendumu sayang
Di sudut anjung rindumu
Di ruang memori bisu...

Kutahu kau terseksa
Melontar-lontar jiwamu bila kita tak berjumpa
Bila rindu tak bersatu

Begitu jugalah aku
Siang malam menunggu
Tak sanggup rasanya aku
Berjauhan denganmu

Berpisah denganmu, sayang...

Oh dunia ini tiada bererti tanpa dirimu
Bila kau tiada, kurasa gelisah
Oh dewi hatiku, gemalah hati yang kurindui
Cintaku ini hanyalah untukmu
Kusayang padamu sepenuh hati
Kucinta padamu pujaan hati

Biar berkocak air di kali
Biar meledak si gunung api
Namun rindu tetap bersemi
Andang cintaku menyala, nyala kembali
Andang cintaku menyala, merah menyala

Oh dunia ini tiada bererti tanpa dirimu
Bila kau tiada, kurasa gelisah
Oh dewi hatiku, gemalah hati yang kurindui
Cintaku ini hanyalah untukmu
Kusayang padamu sepenuh hati
Kucinta padamu pujaan hati

Biar berkocak air di kali
Biar meledak si gunung api
Namun rindu tetap bersemi
Andang cintaku menyala, nyala kembali
Andang cintaku menyala, merah menyala

Berakit-rakit ke hulu
Berenang-renang ke muara
Bersakit-sakit dahulu
Mencari sinar bahagia

Andang cintaku menyala (repeat 5x)

What I think: I want to sing this song on stage one day, haha...too far-fetched? Just you guys wait and see....

I had to switch to the main unit because the laptop could't load anything. Damn bloody laptop. You might as well go and die...

Took my history essay outlines from Loh yesterday. I don't know whether he gave constructive comments, but i thought i might as well head it for the good of my essays.

Try and review the comments he gave. It's all saying the same things, which means that I hardly learn from mistakes..

Q: Examine how colonial policies towards nationalism in SEA contributed to the radicalisation of nationalist movements.
His comments: "Shakirah, you need to raise the level of your analysis. Moreover, your substantiation requires improvement. Try to establish connections between your ideas/points and the content you have learnt. Also, don't speculate, and don't make value judgement."

Q: Do you agree that a lack of strong leadership was the most critical problem for pre-war nationalism in SEA?
His comments: "Shakirah, you have strong ideas here but have been limited by your lack of good supporting evidence. The examples given were either not good ones to illustrate your points, or were mainly mentioned and not elaborated on."

Q: "While the Japanese claimed equality with the Asian nations, they did not regard them as their equals". How far do you agree that this was the reason why the Jap occupiers quicky alienated nationalist movements in SEA?
"Shakirah, your answer begins reasonably well, but then lapses largely into narrative which doesn't quite address the question. Do be mindful of the need for consistent argumentation throughout - topic sentences will help. Keep working hard!"

Q: The impact of the Jap Occupation on nationalism in Southeast Asia would not have been that great if not for the actions of the indigenous nationalist leaders." Critically examine the above statement.
His comments: "Shakirah, this is a good effort from you. However, you'll need to beef up your elaboration. Moreover, do consider the role of indigenous leaders besides resistance, to achieve a more balanced answer.

the international clocks are gone. they simply do not complement my blogskin.

my butt hurts. i've been doing some serious studying, though if you know me well enough, you would understand my definition of 'serious'.

i need to go and cook rice.

till then, take care friends.

I'm out of here

i watched the finals of anugerah skrin yesterday, you know, the talent show where they fish good talents from to be suria's next shining star. i so believed that my most favourite guy, Shah Iskandar, is going to win. hang on, the pictures will say something...



yup, i was kinda hoping that this hero of mine will win...look at him, isn't he something? and i didnt't support him based on his looks only, ok. i support him because of his talent. actually, i thought...


and

will win...

BUT, every story has a twist...

It turns out that...

and

won instead.

Oh well...at least i got half right..

I'll fill in other things on another post.

according to the time now, it's 2.19 am in the morning. what the hell am i doing here? i thought i have to get some sleep. but funnily enough, i'm not tired, and neither am i sleepy. i've been blog-hopping. yeah, that's right. blog-hopping. i dunno what's up with me these days. like i have got nothing else to do.

oh shit. i'm hungry. but there's no food, cos my dear lil bro just gobbled up every single food on the plate. such a selfish maniac. jinx him.

i guess i'll just try to search for Picasso.

till then, take care!

it's so funny how everything turns out the opposite of how you want it to be. it's so funny how people can stare at someone for so long and not recognising that someone. it's so funny how humans are always deviating away from their plans when they have meticulously planned everything out. it's so funny when what a girl used to like, now becomes something which even boys like. it's so funny how no one seemed to notice anything funny, no one but ME.

oh well..you know when i've lost part of my mind when i start ranting about these kinds of stuff.

next time i plan a schedule, i must do it:
i) with my iBook in mind
ii) with the TV in mind
iii) with food in mind
iv) with the hours i spend doing something else besides that thing i planned and set out to do

basically, I HATE MYSELF.

after doing like 10 math problems, i watch 2 hours worth of TV and spend 2 hours worth on the computer. i have such a SHORT ATTENTION SPAN. tell me about it....

after memorising 3 pages of history, which, by the way, is totally dry and 'exciting', because it's on Southeast Asia, i spend 2 days worth of whiling my time away, doing anything and everything except history. no wonder i can't complete the whole syllabus.

after highlighting all the 'important' notes in my econs lecture notes, and doodling, to top onto that, i basically did not touch the whole thing until the next week or so.

one word: PATHETIC

that's right. PATHETIC

nothing more apt than that to describe me at this freaking moment in my life.

that's it


i'm OUTTA HERE

i made a new friend many many weeks ago. he's green, he's chubby, and he croaks. haha..he's a frog. he's a thing named MR FROGGIE. i decided not to kiss him, thank you very much. i know the difference between reality and fantasy. yeah, yeah, i know..i've read many fairy tales where the princess kisses the frog and immediately, poof! the frog is some breathtakingly handsome guy, apparently, he's a prince. 'nuff said. you know what i mean. lol...but seriously, the froggie is so cute. my bestie, being as crazy as she already is, snapped her phone out and took a picture of the froggie. but, as usual, her photographic skills, are, well, need i say more? she didnt manage to get a good clean photo of the frog, so, me, being the superhero, took the phone, went really up close and SNAP! the photo was taken. syah was so damn afraid that i might drop her phone when the frog jumps up at the face, but luckily for her, the 'lil cutie didnt move an inch. the photo was so nice, i told her to save it and put it as her wallpaper. haha, see what happens when you've got 2 AJCians who are already 15 mins late for class, and trying to get rid of the nervous nerves..;p

yesterday, i went shopping. boy, did i shop a lot! i went to raffles city, and just as i was walking past the lingerie section, guess what i saw?!?!?! a guy, a eunuch to be precise (i think...) was working at the lingerie counter!!! he's NOT HOT, NOT SEXY, NOT HANDSOME, but GAYISH-LOOKING! haha...what happened to the old aunties and the sweet young-things who man the lingerie counter? what happened to them? imagine the embarrassment when some ladies paid to buy their lingerie. totally! it was simply radical! but anyways, i thought it was okay later on since i kinda observed 'him' and found out that he's simply one of us, inside of him, but on the outer facade, i can't say much. lol...

i have to rush off now.

High-tea to attend (lol, do i sound like some socialite? cos i aint, baby...)

(scoots...)

i think i must be the most pathetic human being on this planet. i'm awake, fully awake, at about 2.35 am in the MORNING.where everyone is asleep, mind you. i'm not too sure what has happened to my body. it's not having enough sleep, yet there is nothing done about it. in fact, i dont really feel tired at all because of the lack of sleep. i just feel hungry, that's all. but i dont really have the mood to eat. tomorrow, i'm not too sure if i can blog, because i made a pact to make tomorrow full on study mode. haha...not sure how long this will last, though. my brother's watching soccer, or so i thought, in the media room. lolx. the extent through which soccer fan-antics will do just to catch their team play. i wouldn't, though.

just finished writing a message to Picasso, explaining the time difference between Singapore and Amman. Finally, the international clocks are of some use!!! i knew there's something about them. Lol...turns out that amman is 5 hours behind us. Picasso is probably asleep. maybe. i wished he had come online, that's all.

am thinking of food. hungry. maybe i'll just grab a muffin off the rack. later.

back. boy, did that muffin taste good. tomorrow's saturday. my parents are not working. most probably, we'll stay at home cos' my sister's common tests are next week. hoping that my mum will not be full screaming mode tomorrow...gee, my life is so unpredictable.

am tired. after eating the muffin. i am such a loser. betta go get some sleep now.

(scoots...)

i think my lungs are going to break any time now...i've been updating the template, moderating it, changing some nitty-gritty details here and there..blah3x. as i've said many years back, i can be a dirty perfectionist when i want to.

superheroes. i just watched Charlie's Angels which ended its screening on TV about more than an hour ago. it was simply fabulous. i wished i was like those supergirls on TV, you know, fighting the baddies to make the world a more peaceful place. i wished that the world is like that now...

the smell of the freshly-baked blueberry muffins is simply so attractive. sweet, sexy, yet subtle...i must go and have one. after which, i will have to teach my techno-idiot sister how to update her blog and use all sorts of tricks which obviously, i figured it out myself.

more later..

better to go off now...

i'm following the scent of the...

BLUEBERRY MUFFINS, HERE I COME!!!!

funny though, i've never actually fancied muffins of any sort...

So contradicting...

more later...


GET OFF...


NOW!!!!!

oh shoots...i think i am in deep trouble..

gosh. my sister read this blog, and now she knows everything that she is interested to know..

stupid me. i should have minimized the window so that she wont see what's the blog addy...

of all people? why she????


in too much shock now


more later....


(dies away...)

oh shit. i think i am in deep trouble. my sister knows about my blog, and now, i have to be more careful with what i say, because if she finds out the wrong thing, i'm dead..yeah, dead, for sure...

khal hasn't given me his answer whether he is going for my school's drama production. oh..had i mentioned that earlier? tee hee..forgetful me..lolz..

i'm so bored, i'm like twisting my fingers here and there every now and then. i seriously think i should put myself on some computer diet, since my mind always gets distracted and diverts the attention to either the computer or laptop, most of the laptop, so the lappie wins hands down..bleargh..i have such a short attention span. now, that's a real issue which i need to address this moment, or maybe later on...


lolz...

i gotta exit now



my headache's on again


the laptop is going to burst soon, i think..very soon, it might have enough heat to cook an egg


(scoots...)

i hope this blardy laptop is able to load everything up on the blog of mine. it's driving me nuts

i think i'm outta here...


nuff said. there's some soccer matches on tonight. betcha i'm going to watch it.

at long last, i took panamol tablets. and it kinda cured my throbbing headache a bit. gee, what an accomplishment.

i prefer not to ponder more about my common tests. i think it's fated that i won't do well in this. i hope to make it up during Promos. haha..big dreams, slim efforts.

i dont know what to do with that khairulhafiz. he keeps me in the dark about his plans on whether to go to AJ drama or not. i asked him since he thinks he's got no company if he goes, he can asks syahir along. gosh, why cant guys survive alone? honestly, has the society produced such sissy hunks? waitaminute...how can u be a sissy and yet a hunk? lol...Panamol tabs getting the betta of me...

before i go completely insane, i'd better go off now. uh-oh..my throbbing headache is working again..gosh, i need some sleep...

my bones are cracking

tired


tired


off now


(dies away)


dont bother about me not writing a disclaimer


shut up, shakirah...

go off now..


Oh, by the way, khal hasnt given me his response


Shut Up la

Get OFF now

dun forget to eat my tabs tonight



GO OFF


wait



NOW!!!!



ok, ok..

why is it that whenever i try to post a decent entry, and when i'm ready to submit my entry, when i click Publish Post, the computer cant seem to understand what i'm trying to do, and hence, the message, 'Safari can't open the page, click Refresh to enter the page you were looking for'. Dammit. Dammit. Damn this laptop. Such craziness of an iBook.

too frustrated.

more later.

Grr...i'm gonna break this thing if i dont go off now..

(dies away..)

mmm

actually, i don't know what the heck is wrong with me. i've known more hafizs' than any other actual breathing mammal or human being on this entire planet. to date, i've known 7 guys with the name of Hafiz. how cool is that? i think i must be truly exceptional..hoohaa...i know we all hate lists, but this is one list i promise you that you won't be bored of:

1) K Hafiz (known him in MF, was my classmate for 2 years)
2) Hafiz O (known him since i was 10, until now, my madrasah classmate)
3) Hafiz S (my 16 year old uncle. he was my father's cousin
4) Hafiz police (the guy i met online. he's 21 this year)
5) Hafiz T (the ITE guy i met online too. he's 18 this year)
6) Hafiz M.Noor (the 15 year old madrasah friend of mine. best buds with Hafiz O)
7) Hafiz [ira] (my best friend's cousin. 19 this year)

7 guys. 7 Hafizs. Cool. Very shocking fact of life...

mm

i know, i know, the last time i updated was 18th may 2006. but u know what? what else is new in my life????
Headlines:
The World Cup Fever has plagued everyone living on this blue planet.
My Comments:
Everybody seems to be saying that England will win the World Cup this year, but i honestly doubt so. I think Brazil is going to lift the cup again. It's not that i favour ronaldo or ronaldinho for that matter, but i think that even though everyone claims that beckham is back and stronger than ever. but after watching the england team's first match against paraguay, which in the end, the score was 1-0, kudos to england. owen was a bit off that day, and when the paper came out the next day, guess what's the overwhelming headlines??? "No flair, No fun, No something-else"...And sven blamed the weather, which was 30 degress C, for the bad game. i guess u can't blame much on the weather, because, which living human has control over the weather? only God has..and anyways, at least it's better playing with the sun out rather than snow. gosh, such drama...

Headlines:
My Common Tests Are Coming Soon...
My Comments:
So what the hell am i doing here? i guess i am still in the holiday mood. those jc teachers are so smart. they exploited our june holidays and make us study for the tests when school reopens. i just got this sinking feeling that i might not do well for anything at all...what a waste...it's 15% of promos...i guess i better go off now and start mugging. 2 more weeks..
gotta give it my all