Woah. I'm relieved. I finally managed to dig up the oh-so-old notes and whatnots and filed them neatly in ring files. I was thinking long-term, you see. So that I can get organized before I get started on any revision. Actually, I wouldn't have filed if I wanted to look and hunt for all my Math notes. Ahaha...strategic planning, I see...

It was a good start to the day. Woke up at 6.30am, prayed, and went jogging at the park at 7am. The air was clean, I must say. There were a lot of oldies briskwalking and a few dogs running. It was nice. I plan to jog early in the morning from now on. So that I can buy lots of nice clothes (not that I don't have any right now) before I embark on another journey next year.

Speaking of journeys, I'm off to Sydney! Bye!

Somebody's going to KL to further her studies there in July. Woah, lucky you. Anyways, congrats ah. Hope you have fun there. And please, I bet by the time you reach the APM building, you'll prolly look like you just finish PE. Good luck! And come back every Friday night tau!

Oh yessssss....Taufik. Thanks for the sweet sweet chat. It really opened my eyes.

It's Wednesday - already? Where did Monday and Tuesday go?????????????

Today was the last day of madrasah, and I encountered mixed feelings about it. I'm happy cos madrasah is over, and my Sundays are now free, but at the same time, I was upset to leave my classmates whom I've grown up with, since we were so young. The ones whom I've known the longest, since I was in kindergarten, were Ahmad Hakim, Maria and Sheikh. But above all, I'm gonna miss all the friendly chatter, the mindless entertainment, the irritating jokes and the subtle sarcasm which we shared as a class. I'm gonna miss having an extremely hip class, and best of all, I'm gonna miss the people in it. To all you people, thanks for the wonderful memories and merepek bonding sessions which we've had over the past gazillion years. Trust me, it will all be etched deep in my heart.

To my fellow dear classmates,
Fazliah, Maria, Ruqayyah, Sariza, Zubaidah, Khairunnisa, Aslinda, Atikah, Sri, Syaza, Fadhillah, Shuhadah, Fadhli, Hafiz Osman, Hafiz M.Noor, Riyan, Arief, Kariim, Taufiq, Ahmad Hakim, Sheikh, Hasif, Azhar, Nasrul, I'M GONNA MISS YOU GUYS LOADS! And when's the next outing together? In June, right?

That's it. *sobs*. I'm crying now, I think. Maybe when I'm less delirious, I'll write a tribute to you guys each. We'll save that for another day, yeah? Hidup Menengah 4!

Merindu Kepastian

Art Fazil

Andai kau menjadi pelangi,
Biar ku jadi awannya,
Agar kita selalu bersama…

Andai kau menjadi sang duyung,
Biar ku jadi karangnya,
Agar kita sentiasa bersua…

Andai kau menjadi merpati,
Biar ku jadi sang bayu,
Agar kita sering bertemu…

Andai kau menjadi puisi,
Biar ku jadi melodi,
Bersama kita bernyanyi…

Andai ku menjadi rembulan,
Sudikah engkau menjadi kejora,
Hingga pagi nanti…

Andai esok aku menjadi tanah,
Sudikah engkau menjadi bunga,
Menghiasi dadaku…

Longing For Certainty(Translation)

If ever you be a rainbow,
Let me be the clouds,
So we’ll always be together…

If ever you be a dolphin,
Let me be the corals,
So we’ll often encounter…

If ever you be a dove,
Let me be the wind,
So we’ll frequently converge…

If ever you be a poetry,
Let me be the melody,
Together we’ll sing…

If ever I be the moon,
Would you ever be Venus,
Till the break of morn…

If tomorrow I turned to dust,
Would you ever be petals,
To decorate my heart…

Yesterday's ML session was kind of okay, not that fun, but it wasn't too boring either. There were a couple of highlights, among which, I shan't elaborate due to the extreme lack of laziness. Shikin, Farid, AB and Pokpok launched their rockets on the track. It was pretty amusing, how Farid's rocket didn't manage to make that tremendous shoot into space, how AB's and Pokpok's rocket could not cover the parachute properly, and hence, did not manage to make it into space, and how Shikin could not launch her rocket proper cause the water at the bottom of the rocket burst out at her instead. So anyways, besides that, Pokpok and Hudzy stomped and hit at a bee with the frisBEE, until the poor little thing got all flattened out. Obviously, I tried to stop them, but they continue being monsters. And just as expected, five minutes later, another bee came into the classroom, but this time, they left the bee alone for fear of inviting the entire bee clan. So, I think that's it.

The ice cream party today was great! I mean, there were Ben and Jerry's Cherry Garcia, London Dairy strawberry ice cream, Arctic cake and Cappucino ice cream. It was aplenty, and we managed to finish them up with the help of some four 3206 peeps, just to name a few, Jason, Edward, Greg, May and Mr Loh. Ms Sab came over, and she was just joining in the chat with us, and you know what, it felt really good to be able to chat with your tutors like they're your friends. Me, Selina, Jun Yong and I Ting were chatting with Ms Ng about metrosexuals history teachers, camps, etc etc. Woah. It felt great. With Ms Ng around. We should really have this more often, I think. It's one super-dee-duper way to chat about almost anything.

Thank God for Math today, Edward wasn't obnoxious. If not, I would prolly have screamed at him. He merely groaned loudly, so I guess that's fine. And some of his classmates - the ladies - were wearing this Shrek ears headband, and I thought they looked pretty lame. They were going, "Look! Mrs Ong! Would you like to wear the Shrek headband?" Like, come on, that's pure insult, you guys. You are basically saying Mrs Ong doesn't look up to your standards (for lack of a better word), and seriously, you are so rude.

Whatever. Well, yeay, at least the hols are here!!!! Yippeee aiye!!!

Honestly, the stuff which we sold today were quite alright, but sales wasn't that good. Let me see why, there's a shortage of cookies, that's why! And I hate to turn down people whenever they asked for cookies. But, but, there were constraints. Poor mates had to squeeze themselves real hard, just to make that over a 1000-plus cookies yesterday, I think. Never mind, just try and make more today. Haha. We'll reimburse you, I think. And I don't think that cafe freezer worked. I mean, it was on at -18 degrees celcius, but when the ice cream came out, it became cream. Terrible man. Like, there's no electricity. Speaking of electricity, I had to switch the plug of the oven three times, over three sockets, cos halfway through cooking, the oven was switched off. Seriously, the P's gotta pay the bills, man.

Did I mention that I went to look for some cloth to be sent to the tailor yesterday? Me, mom, sis and dad went to Arab Street yesterday, and we went into this shop. Really cosy, I must say. And the cloth which they sold were damn nice, I tell you! And to top that, the person who attended to my mom was this Pakistani guy, who is really young, like say, early 20s, and my gawd, he is hot! Like really sizzling hot, man. And he's really nice too! He offered mom cloth after cloth, and apparently, mom got really involved in this whole buying cloth business. But then, it's fine, cos we spend like two hours at the shop, and I was looking and looking and looking. Ah well, if he's from Pakistan, and has blue eyes and that absolutely refined bod, doesn't that spell dreamy? Gosh, ok, I'm freaking myself out, cos Mrs Low has just echoed something.

"How do you suppose you could write fabulous model answers if you do not study for your Econs test on Wednesday?!" Ah damn, better get down to work, unless I wanna go for extra Econs lessons - which I totally detest. And it's week 10! Holidays are near! Rejoice, y'all!!!!

In the library today, Mozzie was reading the TIME mag in which the main issue was on The Science of Happiness. In which, there was this little questionaire on 'How Happy Are You?'. Being the ultimate Singaporean, Mozzie did the questionaire, and she got a verdict that says, Extremely Dissatisfied. Which I thought was pretty funny considering that she is a happy-go-lucky person. Then I thought, the fact that some people are extremely dissatisfied with their lives should try to appreciate the little things in life which are always taken from granted. And it's not Mozzie I'm directing at (though at the moment in time, I'm sure she is not really in her right mind to do a questionaire sanely). It's at everyone who isn't satisfied with what God has given them. Maybe if we can take the time to appreciate all these, we can appreciate more of what we have, and maybe cut down on those materialistic needs.

Oh boy, what a highly philosophical post. By the way, did I mention that there's this really obnoxious kiddo in my Math lecture? He is so insane, like he has to make the Math more complicated than it really seems. Like, hello? I know you are smart, so just cut down on that showing off part, yeah? If I ever know you better, a certain MR E., I would punch you. But oh no, I can't afford to be accused of assault, can I? I shall be kind to you while I don't know you. Just do us all a favour, either you go someplace to curl up and die, or you just shut the hell up during Math.

I talked to Blusttoy today. During Econs. Now I feel like I've done something wrong.

Now I'm happy. :D
Ironic, isn't it? Whenever I'm happy, I say the weirdest things. Or fings, as Jamie puts it.

I was reading this really good book on our brains, and there was this sentence that piques me, "Never trust something if you do not know where it keeps its brain." Then I was wondering, why on Earth is that sentence in a book that describes brains? I came to a conclusion that it was just a passing thought of the author, and that he wanted to include it in that book cos the word 'brain' is in that sentence. Such a funny thing, the way brains work these days. Come to think of it, I suddenly remembered that there were girls who used to believe the trash which LOVECALCULATOR - CALCULATE YOUR LOVE FACTOR! used to give. I mean, you just type in your name, and the supposed love interest, and you see the percentage representing the chances you have with that love interest. I should know. I tried it once. I tried typing in the same exact name twice, on two separate occasions, and me oh my, the results were different! Pretty lame. It's like saying, one moment you are compatible, the next, you are totally on different wavelengths. Again, what trash. And of course, I still do know of some contacts who are still believing whatever a brainless thing says. Speaking of brains, Ms Sab pointed out an interesting thing today which I never knew until she mentioned it: Do you know that our brain is like the central processing system? Woah. I sure as hell did not know that. So how come there's such a thing as impromptu actions, when you said that the brain controls everything? Is it facts in reverse then? And how come people still do odd things, when the brain is always right? And why do people say, "Think with your heart, not with their brain"? Is that uneducated - still?

I don't know. Maybe as I age, the answers will be more apparent.

Meanwhile, to my new friend, Mussss-taaaa-faaaaa, congrats on having the affections of the alien which has just been transported from Planet Nembula at exactly 1.15pm on Tuesday, 15th May 2007. You earned it. Now work on it, baybeh!

Something is wrong with my blog. But you know what? I don't care. Haha. That's me for the time being.

Life sucks when technology screws up on you. And I let my cell phone sleep on a dead battery for a week!!!! What an amazing record!

What a crazy life it has been. It's only Monday (yes, only Monday!), and I'm feeling so tired already. Maybe it's because my energy level goes down like till negative infinity whenever it's close to the end of term, cos that's usually the case. Heh, at least it's justified. Anyhoos, I took a real good look at the class photos, both formal and informal, and I'm glad to note that everybody looked really natural, albeit the hot sun and the ugly background, and that suffice to say, Carl and me added that extra glamorous touch, hoho! Yihan was really depressed and pissed that she wasn't in the class photo, but oh wells, she was sick that day, so it kinds of balanced everything out. Now I'm off to taunt her day and night about how nice the photo looks like cos she ain't in it. HAHAHAHHHH!!!! Carl and I will have a spiffing good time, trust me on that.

On the other hand, the bowlers had their tournament today. Saw a certain somebody and I offered my thoughts on her. She was sauntering and flirting in that bowling skirt and that usual stomach in chest out position as she's been widely known back then a few years ago. If she ever reads this, then good for her. Cos she has to believe and swallow that not everybody in Bowling likes her being the authoritative mother hen figure when it's really not her who's the President, but my dear friend. So, mommy hen, just concentrate on whatever you've got ok? And don't bother flaunting what you don't have. Cos really, that ain't gonna get you all the boys in the world. The sweetness of innocence is no longer there for you, so wake up!

Ok, I'm done being the B****. I feel relieved, but unrelieved cos of the Econs test this Wednesday. How come all tests are on Wednesdays????

By the way, Isyah, you look really good in that new hair. Different and refreshing. But still, too jet black, hoho....

This is bananas. I'm up, blogging at 12am in the morning (my gawd, is it morning already?!), just so I can lullaby myself to sleep. Oh wells. Maybe just a quick run-through of what's hot, and what's NOT!

Splashed across the front page of the main section of ST was the "ground zero" for Kansas after being hit by a tornado. It is said that the area looked like Hiroshima and Nagasaki after the atomic bombing which ended after WWII. I actually went to check the site of Hiroshima and Nagasaki, and well, I hate to admit it, but they look the same. I mean, the photos bear so much resemblance that it is really frightening to see that US actually has a tornado season. And here we are, complaining that the only seasons we'll ever experience are summer and the monsoon season. Wth. Seriously, somebody gotta re-write the plans (if you can't catch head or tail about what I just said, don't bother. :P). But what I do realise, upon studying the picture of the wreck in greater detail, was that even though the tornado struck, there were still perfectly lined streets and the grass did not change colour! And there's this squalid little white building that's been converted into an emergency centre, though I can't, for the life of me, locate where the triage centre is. So, I guess what we gotta do now is to pray hard that Singapore will not suffer the same fate as those of our counterparts across the Pacific (or is it the Atlantic) Ocean. Cos if Singapore really has that, and God forbids that should happen, then we'll prolly be drowned like millions of feet under.

The NUS camp is this Friday till Sunday! I can't wait! But then again, before going for the camp, I still have to drag my hands to do 2 more Econs essays. Come on, fingers, do me proud!

By the way, do read Tay Yeak Keak's article on Spiderman 3. It's really entertaining, I think. And really funny. Apparently, there's this man in Spiderman 3 named "SANDMAN", and he could save Singapore from having a sand crisis by producing sand from his body, and we can all use the sand. HAHAAHHHH!!!!!!

Holy mosquitoes! Is it Saturday already? Oheiiyhhh, it really is. Time do fly fast, doesn't it? But then again, when has time ever stopped? I felt like a complete, total, utter, dynamic loser this week. I only attended school on Monday and Wednesday, cos Tuesday was Labour Day, or more sophistically known as May Day (it's better to have workers shouting "MAY DAY! MAY DAY!" than "LABOUR DAY! LABOUR DAY!". The latter sounds like cheap labour, and the former sounds like, well, May. Lol. :/), and on Thursday and Friday, had a bout of migraine. Actually, the migraine was under control on Thursday night, but just for the sake of making it 'more complete', I took Friday off. Ahh...bliss....Damn shiok ah, sleeping for like the entire day. But when I woke up, I felt like such a bummer. Wth.

I'm gonna have a BNW test on Monday, and fundamentalist test on Wednesday. Holy bananas! How the heck am I to do that????

Dad's gonna take us watch Phantom of the Opera. Weehhooo!!! It's a beautiful piece by Andrew Lloyd Webber. Darn good, I'm tellin' ya. Go watch it if you've got the time and cash. I had to scrimp to pay part of the cost of the ticket, mind you. I think it's better than sitting at Fort Canning Park, watching A Midsummer Night's Dream. Better than being stung by God-Knows-What, eh?

The test anxiety management workshop just now was a complete waste of time. For three whole damn hours, we had to listen to some really unmotivational speaker talk about his achievements, and how to make ourselves more hypnopaediac. Gaahh..Breathing techniques are supposed to calm you down? While I can vouch for that, I ain't sure that it can totally ward off all the anxiety we're experiencing before tests. And oh, did I mention that the reason why I didn't do so well during the promos was because I didn't really study? And not that I had test anxiety?

Parents and I had a real good talk about my future. Apparently, I'm supposed to do well enough to get myself a place in the Law School. What shrooms! That would mean getting an A for GP (not that impossible) and doing well for the others. I'll try, but if I should ever fail to be an apprentice, or even get my butt into Law School, I'm going to dive straight into Cognitive Psychology. But Law School's the first option, trust me on that. :D

toodles!

Farah's coming over this Saturday! Whee! My mugging partner. Maybe we'll have more spaghettis and pizzas, yes? I'll make them, you wash up. Simple. Then, we can mug for Econs and get that distinction together!

Hahaa..senseless, I know. Alrightey, everybody, please cover your mouths and contain your deep-set laughter, cos what I'm about to reveal is more absurd (at least to me) than anything coming from me. I have this sudden interest on saving the Earth. How many people realised that Mother Earth is dying? It's all because of our work and 'efforts' that is causing Mother Earth to be at it's wits end. We are consuming too much paper, burning too much fossil fuels and throwing away too much plastics! Come on, people, we have got to do something about this! We can't just depend on the Kyoto Protocol (which by the way, is gonna expire in 2012) to save our Earth, right? We have to be active, and don't waste paper la. It's as simple as that.

Next, I too realised that I'm a really strong advocate of human rights and children dying elsewhere because of hunger and the likes. I don't know what's up with me and human rights. It's like, ever since I joined SIMUN and was in the HR committee, I've been really passionate about such stuff. I stand by the International Declaration of Human Rights, and I abide through and through. Poor people. Here we are, manicly gorging ourselves with food and taking excellent care of our material well-being, and there are others elsewhere in the world who are dying and just scrimping to get past the day. Or even worse, we take our freedom of speech and want for granted, whereas others may not even have that privilege! Now, ain't we abusive or not? The point that I'm trying to make here is, if we can sit back and reflect on how lucky we are, maybe that would lessen the pain of others. I really pity those people who are not given the basic and most essential human rights. Oh, and a little advertising here, if any of you are free, watch Born Into Brothels, where the photog, Zana, delves in deeper into India's redlight district, and transforms the lives of children who are initially made into prostitutes. It's an amazing journey. I enjoyed watching it, cos it's so heartbreaking to see these kids being abused at such a young age. But a word of caution: Vulgarities are apparent, and so are stripping scenes. But it's a mature documentary, so it's fine.

With that said, now you guys can laugh at whatever I just wrote. Thank you. And please save the trees!

Listen up to the song y'all! It's sweet, isn't it? I'm totally in love with this song right now, and what's so fun about it is that it complements my blog title! Ahaha...now how often can we have that eh?

I deserve a break, but I can't. I promised that I'm gonna mug like a shithead. I have got to continue doing this, no matter how mundane it is. Farah my cousin came over, and she just left. She's my new muggin partner for Econs. *screams and yelps*. Hahaha..this is uber cool. Yeah, I know it.

I realised that one of the people whom I've grown up with has turned into an utter b****. I can't comment much about her, because a part of me thinks that it's best to ignore such negative influences that are not even worth your time, but another part of me thinks that I'm jealous at her OVERWHELMING success, though I can't say that she's definitely has that much overwhelming successes, but still, you get my drift. Gaahhh...talking about her is like wasting space on my blog. Whatever, you b****.

This has been a rather senseless post. I'd better go indulge myself in some self-loving and self-fulfillment and some communication with God. I better repair my relations with Him. God knows, I need His help. Thank you.